Dear Little Sister

“Love what you have, before life teaches you to love what you lost”

Dear Little Sister,

Being away from you is harder than you think, before I left for college you became my best friend. I started teaching you how to dress, how to do your hair, and introduced you to makeup. Together you and I started becoming one—twins—inseparable. I’m still afraid that there are many things I wasn’t able to teach you, the things I had to teach myself. After saying that I am sorry for many things. I’m sorry for leaving you, I’m sorry I had no others words besides “she’s not coming back’, I’m sorry for missing your whole high school career, I’m sorry I couldn’t be there when you needed me the most, I’m sorry I couldn’t be the best sister I could be. I know you will have many struggles in life and I believe you will overcome them all. As one of your older sisters I can tell you myself that we are all broken, I just can’t imagine how life would be if I didn’t have my bigger sister around. I’m honestly proud of you, you’re actually braver than you think. At times you might get overwhelmed and things may get out of hand but I promise you that you can conquer anything that you want. I know you’re capable of these things because you are my little sister. I have so much faith in you and I know you’re on your way but in case you do need help, just know I’m only a phone call away. In your journey things will happen, people will disappoint you, and people may break your heart. So embrace it. Only struggles and challenges reveal you how strong you really are. Be true and give thanks. Hold on to the ones who stand by you during tough times. Luckily all of us work hard, and for you little one, I want you to work harder. Be okay when you’re told no, prove somebody wrong when they say you can’t. Nothing should be given to you, work until you made it!

Now I know Daddy and Sharm drive you up the wall but I promise you they want nothing but the best for you. Daddy has the biggest heart of us all. He has great wisdom and he’s seen the best and the worst the world has to offer. He wants nothing more than his kids to be successful. He is so kind and loves his little girls so much that it is hard for him to say no.  I learned that and I told myself not to take advantage of it. I made a vow to myself that I would strive no matter what to make him happy. He sacrificed so much for us. In order to help his family he went overseas, missed his first son’s birth, and came back to a wife with breast cancer with only a year left to live. He had enough heartache in his years and  I want to help mold his heart back together by making him proud. Alright now for Sharm … she’s just crazy!

I’m just playing.

But honestly, she put her life on hold in order to help raise us. Her and I did not get along by any means when I was younger. She struggled with trying to fulfill the mother role that I needed and yet also forgetting to just be my sister. I struggled with taking her criticism because I felt like it was never good enough for her. I always did something wrong and nothing I did was ever enough to please her. It was tough love and that’s carried with me now, I’m pretty humble about all my accomplishments because that’s what I am supposed to do. I’m supposed to do well and do great things and I owe my humility to her.

As for your journey in life, I want you to learn from my mistakes. I want you to excel in this world. Become unstoppable, be creative, and just love. No matter what, be yourself. You will change over your years of growing but never forget the ones who paved this path for you. Although you’re writing your own story, you will follow and lead many along the way so be aware who you surround yourself with. I’m unbelievably proud of you (I wish I knew more synonyms for proud). I work hard and knock down my own barriers so I can be an example for you and William. Although you might not follow the same road as me, I want you to acknowledge hard work when you see it and never be afraid to take a stand or face a challenge head on.  This is my open letter to you which came straight from my heart. I miss you dearly you don’t even understand. I can’t wait to spend time with you again picking out clothes, and doing each other’s hair. I love you so much and I really hope you take all things into consideration. I love you Turt!

Love sincerely,

Olivia

P.S. You Ugly!